Wednesday, December 16, 2015

Update on my Mom

When I wrote my last blog about the unexpected I had no idea how unexpected the path would actually be!And yet He is Immanuel, God with us!


Here is an update from my Dad. I am sure there are better places or ways to update everyone but I am too tired to think of it now so for tonight this will suffice.

I am truly a blessed and proud daughter! My Mom is thinking of others even in the midst of her own trauma (although why should I be surprised??) and my Dad is leaning on and trusting in Jesus. This is the hardest thing any of us have ever done but He is holding us on this unexpected journey!

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Friends and family,

First, we feel overwhelmed with an ocean of grace by the many emails, texts, voice mails, visits, cards, etc.  It is impossible to keep up with the correspondence but please know that we read every one and each one is a beautiful means of grace to our fragile souls. I find myself in tears with almost each one I read. I've never had words touch me quite like this. Thank you, thank you.

William Cowper wrote the hymn "God Moves in a Mysterious Way". How I love these words: 

Judge not the Lord by feeble sense,
But trust him for his grace;
Behind a frowning providence
He hides a smiling face.

The past 72 hours have been like none I've ever lived.  Providence did indeed seem to be frowning.  For about 48 hours, it felt like we were falling off a cliff, hitting on rocky ledge after another in our descent. Where would it end?  But even as the wheels were falling off and life was spinning out of control, we caught glimpses, and at times, a glorious vision of the "smiling face" behind the turbulence.

On Monday morning, Katy and I faced one of the greatest challenges of our life as she underwent surgery to remove a spiculated nodule from her left lung.  All signs had seemed to indicate cancer so when the doctor said it was benign, we erupted in praise and sent a letter to all of you saying that the battle was over and thanks for the prayers.  Little did we know that the battle had only begun!  

On Monday afternoon about 4:00, Katy had a "large stroke".  A blood clot lodged in her right brain leaving her left side paralyzed.  Our surgeon said that in all his life he had never experienced anything like this and is struggling to account for the clot.  Over the next 24 hours a series of CT scans showed that the brain was swelling.  Not good.  We noticed that Katy was more and more non-responsive and by late Tuesday  afternoon a neurosurgeon had been called in.  He explained that if he did not do immediate surgery to relieve the pressure, Katy would probably die.  

In shock, we signed the papers and again (!) watched as Katy was wheeled away behind closed doors for two hours of more surgery.  A craniotomy was performed, removing bone from the right side of her skull so the brain could thus expand as it adjusted to the damage caused from the stroke.  Last night (Tuesday) about 8:00, the neurosurgeon announced that the surgery had gone smoothly and Katy's vital signs looked good.  But he stressed that there would still be about 48-72 hours of recovery in neuro-ICU which would be critical.  

We are in that period of waiting now.  Katy is responsive and her mental capacities and personality seem to be present.  She cannot talk well and can barely keep her eyes open.  This morning she indicated she wanted a pen and paper and with eyes unable to open, wrote out in perfect script (!) instructions about who we were to call to inform about her condition!  We laughed as we realized that beneath all the bandages and tubes and medication and trauma of two surgeries, Katy was still thinking of others and THEIR well being!  As you know, I am married to a saint.

It is far too early to predict the future but if recovery over these next few days goes well, I think we will be looking at a lengthy rehabilitation.  The medical staff has been very helpful and have worked to keep our expectations realistic.  Of course, we are asking God for full recovery but know that it will likely be a long and challenging journey.

Again, I cannot begin to say how much the notes and prayers and verses and visits have meant.  We are incredibly blessed by a family of people who have enriched our lives and blessed us in ways that make us feel like we are swimming in an ocean of grace.  The "frowning providence" is still a reality and we recognize that this journey may still have difficult challenges and pain and loss.  But today.... I'm thanking God for his smiling face, that we see so clearly through you!  The worlds of FAS, LCC, PAACS, OMS, WGM, Asbury, and Mt. Zion, continue to buoy us along in a great current of grace!  

A friend from LCC (thanks M.H.!) gave Katy and me a Bible verse that has helped to hold us steady during the past few days:  "For I, the Lord your God, hold your right hand (that is Katy's workable hand!); it is I who say to you 'Fear not, I am the one who helps you.'" (Isa, 41:13).  

All three daughters are with us: Anna from Germany, Sarah and Adam from Michigan, and Elisabeth and Ben from Chicago.  Needless to say, their presence is better than any pharmaceutical concoction the doctors can order.

How we love you!  

Trusting His face!
 
Stan Key

Monday, December 14, 2015

Unexpected Places

(I wrote this yesterday as I traveled)
Unexpected places. Most of us have found ourselves at some point in an unexpected place or facing unexpected news. In the last 72 hours my family has embarked on an unexpected journey which has drawn me to the story of Mary and Joseph in new ways.

Mary and Joseph were a 'normal' couple dreaming of getting married, starting a family, running a carpenters shop but all of that changed in a moment with a very unexpected visit and message from Gabriel. Although the message was Good News for mankind, it was certainly unexpected and life altering news for Mary and Joseph. It led them on a very unexpected journey. One that neither of them could have ever dreamed of and maybe one that had they known all that would be required may have caused them to ask Gabriel for some time to think about it. Thankfully their faith was up to the test. When asked to trust God with the impossible and the unexpected they said YES! When faced with disapproving stares, looks, rumors they continued to trust God.

Their journey continued to take unexpected turns as a pregnant Mary found herself traveling to Bethlehem and giving birth in a stable far from family and friends. Was she scared? What all did she ponder as she nursed and cared for the Savior of the world? Joseph is often overlooked in the Christmas story yet his faith was such that he willingly joined this unexpected journey. He must have felt the weight of caring for and protecting Mary and this special baby. I tend to overlook those fears and anxious moments, even miss their hopes and dreams and rush forward to the fact that this baby was the Savior of all mankind and skip to the 'Good tidings of great joy' of which the angels sang. And yet they chose to trust God in the pain, the fear and in the joys of raising Jesus. They trusted Him with the unexpected and the seemingly impossible.

While it is impossible to really know what it was like for them, I do identify with seeking to trust God with the unexpected and the impossible. No, an angel didn't bring me a message but I did receive a phone call that changed everything and leaves me trusting Jesus with the seemingly impossible. I unexpectedly find myself on a journey, not on a donkey headed to Bethlehem but on a plane headed to KY to be with my parents as my Mom faces major surgery early tomorrow to remove a likely malignant nodule on her lung. I find myself like Mary traveling a road I did not expect, having no real idea what the days ahead will hold for me or my family.  I find myself facing anxious thoughts and asking big questions, praying that we will faithfully walk through these days.

But while only Mary knows what it is like to carry the Son of God, His presence has been very real and very close these last few days. We have sensed his presence and provision as we have had to process this news and quickly make plans during a very busy time of year.  Jesus made it possible for me to change my ticket to fly home early.  He provided fellow staff members who willingly stepped in to help cover my classes. He provided clarity of mind to wrap up things quickly and pack. And I know he will continue to provide and be present!

Although we have no idea what tomorrow and the days after it will hold, we know and trust in the One who holds all of our tomorrows. It feels unexpected and impossible but as the Christmas story reminds us so clearly: 'nothing is impossible with God.' And while our journey like Mary and Joseph's may include pain, fear and joy, we trust the One who willingly entered our upside down world knowing full well that the cross was part of that plan. 

So today we chose to trust Him on this unexpected journey because Christmas proves that He is trustworthy and best of all He is Immanuel! He is with us in all the unexpected moments of life!


Sunday, November 15, 2015

Light in the darkness



I wake up Saturday morning to the news. Paris has been the target of a coordinated terrorist attack. Paris is certainly not the first and already they are not the last… but like so many of my students at Black Forest Academy, this to me was not just something to read about in the news. This feels close and personal! This is a country and city that I called home for most of my childhood. Both of my sisters were born there. This is a country that is currently only a 20 minute drive from my apartment, several of my students commute daily from France. This is a country and people that hold a huge part of my heart. 

On Sunday morning I wake and feel compelled to drive to a nearby French city to attend church. I end up through a series of events at a Catholic cathedral in Colmar. It is named for Saint Martin and built in the mid to late 13th century. Following the sounds of the ringing church bells I am able to find the church through the maze of small streets. I pass monuments, statues and street signs that all serve to remind me that evil and suffering are not new even in this beautiful quiet town in the eastern part of France. 
  •  I am reminded of the evil and suffering in this world as I see a monument honoring those who died fighting in the French resistance during the Second World War.


  •   I am reminded as I read the plaque inside the church celebrating their deliverance from occupation.
  •  I am reminded of it as I cross the border into France and for the first time in years there is a check point. Every car is being stopped.
  •  I am reminded as I find my way to the cathedral only to find 6-8 fully armed soldiers surrounding the church.


  •  I am reminded as I see a cathedral packed on a Sunday morning for probably the first time in a long time, as people are grieving, fearful and hungry for hope and peace. 
  •  I am reminded as I see heads bowed and people quietly wipe away tears. 
  • I am reminded as I watch one young father who seems to be holding his little girl extra tight as I imagine he wonders what kind of world she will grow up in. 

 One does not have to look far to be reminded of the evil that does exist in this world and at times it threatens to consume us.

AND YET as we approach the Christmas season I am reminded of some other important truths.

  •  I am reminded of the beauty of the fellowship of believers as I listen to hundreds recite the Lord’s Prayer and Nicene Creed, joining with believers throughout the world and the centuries in affirming our faith in a good and merciful God.


  •  I am reminded that when the darkness seems to be at its greatest that is when the light shines brightest (Isaiah 9:2).

  • I am reminded that our only hope is in the name of Jesus!

  • I am reminded of our Father’s heart that breaks not just when terrorists attack but over EVERY soul that is lost.

  • I am reminded that it was into this messy, sinful world that God sent His Son. Emmanuel, God with us!

  • I am reminded that He is the Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace and that He will reign forevermore (Isaiah 9:6-7)

Though it may feel at times that evil is winning, we know the end of the story and we can rest in the knowledge that He is still on the throne! 

In the meantime however, our work here is not done. Will you join me in praying for the world? Will you ask Him for opportunities to share your faith? Will you pray for a spiritual awakening in Europe and around the world? Will you pray for believers around the world who are persecuted simply for following Him? May He find us faithful!

Thankful for the hope and peace that is found only in Him!

Below are two links to help remind you to pray for France and the world and to remind us that "He shall reign forevermore".


Wednesday, August 26, 2015

The One who redeems, restores life, and sustains

“Blessed is the Lord who has not left you without a redeemer today...May he also be to you a restorer of life, and a sustainer of your old age...” (Ruth 4:14-15)

Ever felt like you don't know where to begin? That is how I feel as I attempt this long overdue update. So much has happened in the last three months and as I tried to determine how best to recap what the Lord has and is doing Jesus reminded me of this verse that I recently read in Ruth. While I realize this verse is referring to Boaz and Obed, it is also a foreshadowing of the ultimate kinsman-redeemer, Jesus Himself! I would like to share some of the events of the last three months under the three descriptions listed in this verse: the One who redeems, restores life and sustains.

Restorer of Life
At times living overseas is difficult and on May 17 I received news that made that ocean feel twice as big. My Dad had suffered a massive heart attack that should have taken his life. But the Lord was so merciful and RESTORED LIFE to him! We are so grateful and yet regardless of the outcome there is such comfort in knowing that we can trust the One who holds our tomorrows.

Just yesterday, a week after my return to Germany, I received the hard news that my sweet grandmother (my Dad's mom) had entered the presence of Jesus after a brief hospital visit. How my heart longs to celebrate her life lived for her Savior but it was not possible to return in time for the funeral. Yet I feel so grateful for her legacy. She was adopted into a Christian family at the age of 7 and spent her life in ministry to her family and others, traveling in retirement with my grandfather around the world to minister to others. But even though God did not restore her life here on this earth, because of His REDEMPTION, He has given her ultimate RESTORATION of LIFE! She is with Him in glory and I can't wait to spend eternity with her.
 
Sustainer
How grateful I am for the Lord's SUSTAINING grace for the end of a very full year here at BFA and for His SUSTAINING strength for an exhausting yet wonderful summer, celebrating my grandfather's 94th birthday, lots of travel, hearing my Dad preach, seeing loved ones, speaking, taking an online summer class, helping my sister move, caring for my grandfather, etc. I am so grateful that the Lord allows me the privilege of just doing life with my family during the summer. I am rarely home when needs arise but this summer He allowed me the blessing of being able to help in different capacities and I am thankful for daily SUSTAINING strength!

Redeemer
I have seen His REDEEMING love as I received an email last week from one of my students who shared with me that she had set a goal to read the four Gospels this summer and had just completed John! My heart was so blessed as this sweet girl has returned to the States after a year here at BFA and will be missed. From the very first day the Lord had placed her on my heart and I continue to pray for her and all my students that they would come to fully know Him as their Redeemer.

As I begin my fifth year here at BFA and look ahead at a new school year with the many changes that inevitably come each year at BFA, I find myself as needy and dependent on Jesus as I was my first year. And you know what? I am grateful. I think we are supposed to live there even though it is hard! And YET with Naomi I want to declare that in the midst of the hardships and the losses that He is our REDEEMER, our RESTORER and our SUSTAINER and worth it all! What a mighty God we serve!



Friday, March 27, 2015

Look Up!





I learned that reading my Bible every day changes the way you see things that happen throughout the day. I am more positive, optimistic.

I learned that I have a lot of things in my life to be thankful for.

I learned a lot about different countries around the world and how to pray for those countries.

As I sat around a lunch table listening to a dozen or so students reflecting on their participation in the Lent Challenge (see previous blog), I was reminded that while I am technically their teacher, they often teach me! Lent, I am embarrassed to admit, has always been a season that tends to sneak up on me and I rarely end up following through on my intentions. But there is nothing like a bunch of middle schoolers to keep you accountable and to help remind you of your commitment. I have truly been blessed to be praying for a different country every day and then hearing my students talk about that country as they walk into my classroom. I loved hearing them make connections between what we are learning about in Bible class and what they had read in Isaiah that morning for their daily reading, or hearing them share what they were grateful for on that particular day.

As we celebrated the end of our Challenge (yesterday was the last day of school) and broke bread together I shared briefly with them something that the Lord has been teaching me recently: to look up! As we have been in a race to the finish line (spring break!) this past week, my attention has been on grades, lesson plans, taxes, etc. I have found that my natural tendency is for my gaze to be turned downward into the details of life. I quickly become overwhelmed by my ‘to do’ list, the events in the news, the weight of teaching, etc. But the daily disciplines of our Challenge helped me to look up!  I looked up this phrase in the Bible (pun intended). I knew that I would find it in Isaiah and the Psalms but the two references that stood out to me where from Genesis 22 and Mark 16. In Genesis 22, it says that Abraham looked up and there in a thicket he saw a ram caught by its horn (v13). This ram meant salvation for Isaac and mercy for Abraham. What if Abraham hadn’t looked up? 

Mark 16 tells us of the women who were approaching the tomb that Sunday morning worrying about who would roll away the stone for them… but when they looked up, they saw that the stone, which was very large, had been rolled away (v.4). Wow! Thank goodness they were not too bogged down with the details and worries of life to look up. They would have missed the most amazing event in human history! An empty tomb!

As we enter into this Holy Week, my prayer is that I would keep my eyes on Him, on His sovereignty, majesty, love and power.
 
May each of us take time this Holy week to look up and see the Lamb of God slain for us and for the sins of the world! But come Sunday morning, let's look up and see the stone rolled away and am empty tomb! He is risen! He is risen indeed!